What did I get myself into?!

There are a handful of things in my life that are difficult:

1. Raising two children on my own
2. Parts of my job
3. Maintaining friendships/relationships
4. Getting into shape

A big portion of the difficulty comes from time management. I feel like I don't have enough time for everything and from time to time that causes me to want to give up. I wake up in the morning, mentally prepare myself for the day and then execute it. Kids to school, me to work, pick up the kids, go to the gym, go home, make dinner, kids homework/shower/bed time, and then pour myself into bed sometime before midnight (if I'm lucky), just to wake up and do it all over again [usually with an aching body].

WHAT DID I GET MYSELF INTO?!

As much as I'd love to have the outlook of constant sunshine and rainbows, it doesn't always happen.

Here lately, there have been days where I wake up in the morning and don't want to get out of bed. I think most of this comes from the day-to-day BS of my job. I think if it weren't for having to get the kids to school and actually getting to the gym that evening, I wouldn't even get up. On the other hand, there are some days, like a day off, where I actually want to get out of the bed and hit the ground running, but on a day off, who doesn't? HAHA.

I realize that life, in general, is difficult. If it wasn't we would have such great experiences, opportunities to learn and grow, or make friendships/relationships, among other things. With the things that I've been through in my life time, I have also come to realize that life is short and we must live it to the best of our ability. Now more than ever do I strive to live a fulfilling, happy life and who or whatever gets in my way of that will be removed promptly. Regardless of the level of difficulty I am having, I will take time to stop and smell the roses and to live, laugh, and love. It will get better, I just have to make it through this nonsense first. In the end, it will all be worth it. I don't see myself looking back on today and thinking, "I could have done something more". I'll make it through and I will come out on top! 

I think Avril Lavigne said it best in her song, "Keep Holding On":

You're not alone
Together we stand
I'll be by your side, you know I'll take your hand
When it gets cold
And it feels like the end
There's no place to go
You know I won't give in
No I won't give in

Keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through
Just stay strong
'Cause you know I'm here for you, I'm here for you
There's nothing you could say
Nothing you could do
There's no other way when it comes to the truth
So keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through

So far away
I wish you were here
Before it's too late, this could all disappear
Before the doors close
And it comes to an end
With you by my side I will fight and defend
I'll fight and defend
Yeah, yeah

Keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through
Just stay strong
'Cause you know I'm here for you, I'm here for you
There's nothing you could say
Nothing you could do
There's no other way when it comes to the truth
So keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through

Hear me when I say, when I say I believe
Nothing's gonna change, nothing's gonna change destiny
Whatever's meant to be will work out perfectly
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah

La da da da
La da da da
La da da da da da da da da

Keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through
Just stay strong
'Cause you know I'm here for you, I'm here for you
There's nothing you could say
Nothing you could do
There's no other way when it comes to the truth
So keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through

Keep holding on
Keep holding on

There's nothing you could say
Nothing you could do
There's no other way when it comes to the truth
So keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through